Monday, August 22, 2011

Shocked.

*EDITED TO ADD*
I know this post doesn't really make sense. In an effort to be respectful, I left out a lot. Also, I know my feelings are so unimportant in the scheme of things. I was just trying to say that this news really hit me hard which surprised me.

One of the reasons I stopped blogging was some news I received when Sunshine was just a few days old. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was driving to pick-up TOIAW from a late class when he called and told me one of his former colleagues had died during a deployment. I recall thinking that was an odd way to phrase a war casualty because most people would say the soldier was killed. At the same time, I was hit with a wave of emotions--namely guilt--because, to be completely honest, I never liked the guy. Then TOIAW blurted out another detail that shocked me to my core: he had killed himself. We were both stunned for days. I wanted to blog about it--just so I could process the information--but it just didn't seem right. Similarly, I tried to write an email his commander's wife but even in my overly emotional post-partum state I knew it wasn't appropriate because, although she is a sweet friend and would never tell me it's none of my business, it really isn't my business and it's certainly not something she could discuss. I still think about him and I wonder why.


Friday, August 5, 2011

Hello? Hello? Is this thing on?

Let's start with the basics: Everyone is alive and well. Some days I might even classify us as thriving! But not all days because, you know, we're normal people.

I don't really have a reason as to why it's been 5 months since I last blogged. It's not as if I haven't had anything to say. Nothing major has happened, however. Just raising a beautiful baby girl. I'm currently up to my neck in sleep training and introducing solid foods. My world is pretty small. I love it! I even love the not-so-fun parts. I have my moments but I really try to take a deep breath and praise God to the tips of my toes for blessing me with these "problems."

I, we, couldn't be more in love with our little Sunshine! That's what I'm going to call her on the blog. Her name means "ray of light" so it seems like a reasonable pseudonym. She is certainly a ray of light in my life!

After such a long hiatus, you would think I'd have plenty to say but I don't right now. Just wanted to (briefly) check in but I'll be back soon. I'm working on a 6-month post which will include pictures from every birthday except 3 months because we forgot that one. Oops. You can be assured I will be working on this post because I have 2 papers to edit. My best blogging is when I should be reading/writing something else.

I missed you guys! Hope you're all well...