Monday, August 24, 2009

One Year Ago

One year ago today I saw 2 pink lines. Those lines were my sweet Sarah announcing her presence. As I enter into this season I am filled with tremendous sadness, loneliness, and longing. It's gotten so bad that I saw a counselor last week (and I'll see him again this week) but he says I'm doing fine, all things considered. It's difficult to imagine that this much pain could ever be considered normal.

13 comments:

The Unproductive One said...

I wanted to ask how you found the Counsellor?

I NEED to talk about my losses but none of my nearest and dearest want to help me in that regard and so I've contemplated going to see a Counsellor but I'm also hesitant about it.

Feel free to email me childlessone@gmail.com

Rach
xxxx

N said...



Remembering Sarah with you.

Though I haven't been through a stillbirth, I can tell you that the anniversaries around my brother's death were nearly as bad as the event itself. Especially the first ones. It is normal, but it's sad that it has to be. Much love to you.

mrsmuelly said...

These "reminder days" can be very hard. I'm sorry that Sarah is not there with you. Sometimes it's just so very not fair.

HereWeGoAJen said...

I'm thinking of your Sarah.

Cara said...

Remembering with you - today and always.

Sarah - look down with love on your mommy today.

Julia said...

Here from LFCA.

I am so sorry that your beautiful Sarah is not here with you. Remembering with you and wishing you a measure of peace as you walk through the many "firsts" without your daughter.

sonja said...

Remembering your angel with you.


(from LFCA)

Once A Mother said...

Remembering your sweet girl and missing her for you. I wish that she was in your arms. I am glad that you are open to finding comfort in a counselor, I have seen one twice a week since saying goodbye to my daughter, and it is helping.

Melis.sa said...

i abide with you.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Michele said...

remembering with you...

Writermom said...

Oh Rachel, this just breaks my heart. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I have been going to a counselor every week ever since our miscarriage last Jan., and I really think it helps.

The Gutsy Mom said...

I love you, Rachel. I pray that Sarah herself will help you through these times. Wish I could give you a hug RIGT NOW.

AKD said...

I just wanted to say how very much your strength and kindness radiate through your posts. God bless you.