Friday, July 24, 2009

Crushing News

Out of the 12 eggs, only 5 mature and none fertilized with ICSI. Three matured overnight and they fertilized those as well but obviously there's little to no chance those will fertilize. The doctor said he'll call me again tomorrow. I asked him if it was my eggs and he said yes (his answer was longer than that, but that's the gist of it).

TOIAW just got home to comfort me. I feel like I should be comforting him because I'm the reason we can't make a come-home-with-us-alive baby.

11 comments:

Soapchick said...

OMG Rachel I am so sorry. What horrible news. I am praying for you right this moment.I hope that TOIAW hugs you very tight and wipes your tears away. I'm so sorry honey. This is not fair.

N said...



Even if it's your eggs, it is not YOUR FAULT.

Tracy said...

I'm so sorry, Rachel. This IS crushing news. It just isn't fair. And I agree with N, this is not your fault. Sometimes life just plays out this way...it could have just as easily been TOIAW and you wouldn't have blamed him, would you? So don't blame yourself.

Big hugs.

Mrs. Higrens said...

Oh no. What a kick in the heart.

Good thoughts heading your way as you figure out "what's next".


LFCA

Pie said...

Ugh, I'm sorry. That just sucks.

((HUGS))

Lorza said...

I am so sorry sweetie. That sucks! Here from LFCA {{HUGS}}

Sophia said...

You don't know me, here from LFCA I am so sorry. Again it is not your fault.

Aunt Becky said...

Oh, I am breathless. I am so sorry. So, so sorry.

Megan said...

I'm so sorry for this news. I understand hwo it feels to have crappy eggs and nothing to transfer after all that work. Take care of yourself and take some time to process this loss.

The Unproductive One said...

I agree, even IF it's your eggs, it's NOT your fault BUT I know me telling you that doesn't help allievate the feelings of guilt you may have, trust me I'm there experiencing the same feelings.

I get knocked up and MY body can't keep our babies alive....the guilt is the hardest thing to deal with.

I blogged about something similar last week http://unproductivelyso.blogspot.com/2009/07/why.html

Big hugs, know you're not alone...

xxx

'Murgdan' said...

Here from LFCA. I let out an "ugh" when reading the blurb over there. This sucks, and I'm so so sorry.